I consider myself a kind, caring, honest soul who tries to live by what I preach. I endeavour to live my life by the Reiki Principles:
Just for today, I will not be angry
Just for today, I will not worry
Just for today, I will be grateful for my many blessings
Just for today, I will do my work honestly
Just for today, I will be kind to all living things.
I take my spiritual work very seriously, it is a great responsibility and not to be taken carelessly. I believe that happiness is a choice as is stress, sadness, anger and so on. If I feel anger bubbling up I remind myself that I can chose not to allow what or whoever has affected me to make me angry, if I feel stress bubbling up I tell myself to breath, say a mantra a few times and ask myself what useful purpose remaining stressed would give me. The answer is always nothing!
I have been on this lightworker’s journey for a long time now and I have learned, just when you have overcome some challenges and reached goals the goal posts get moved and a new lesson is placed in front of you. We will not grow spiritually if we stand still, we are here to learn.
This week I have been working through how to send love and light to a person that I don’t know who has done harm to someone very dear to me. This particular person placed ‘date rape’ drugs into the drink of my loved one on an evening out. This left her extremely poorly for more than a day and she lost 3 hours recollection of her evening. I will tell you now that she was not attacked as her friend stayed with her the whole time. I am thanking her angels (an her friend) for protecting her in this way as the outcome could have been so much worse. When she was brought to my home for me to look after I had just done the vacuuming and all was clean, as she staggered to the sofa a little white feather appeared just behind her, I feel truly blessed that she is safe and well and clearly was being protected.
I have been trying to work out how to feel understanding and compassion for someone who would do such a thing, my initial motivation was selfish in that I will not allow that person to fill me with darkness and negativity, but then I got to thinking…. WHY? I mean I get the motivation, probably sexual and power based but what makes a person born into the world perfect behave in such a way? I can only assume that they have either had a childhood that in has left them with lack of ability to feel love and compassion for their fellow beings or perhaps they have a mental illness or drug addiction that skews the perception of light, dark, love, hate etc.
“Understanding replaces forgiveness in the mind of the master” – Neale Donald Walsh.
So I do not forgive this person / people as to do that would, for me, mean it was OK to do what they did and it was most certainly not! However, I will have understanding that nobody who is in their right mind, who has had a happy well rounded life and has been taught how to LOVE would do such a thing and so I understand that what they did they thought was somehow OK.
I will include this person in my prayers and I will pray that they receive love and light from me and from the Universe. Then maybe one day in this life or the next they will be able to re-balance and live in loving kindness giving something back.